Signing Out

-Class Rep reporting for last Duty-

Salam and Hello all!

Its been long since i blogged. So this is my last blog as a Class Rep. At last. Its tiresome being one, well it is for me. Earlier I created a 8 page blog but then i suddenly deleted it unintentionally. Damn, penat2 je bwat.

Anyway, I wan to say sorry for all the things i did wrong this Sem. Im immature, playful, wild, naughty, devious, social, stubborn, hateful, teaseful and imperfect. I have many traits that would make people dislike me. I know of that fact and Im sorry if its an embarrassment having me as a Class Rep. But I did try my best.

Im sorry for the times i forgot to photostat, or print or inform the class about anything. Im sorry if i exploded and scolded all of you. Im sorry when I was too wild and forgotten people's feelings. Im sorry the times i went to class late, i shouldve shown a good example as the Class Rep. Im sorry if i offended anyone, with my stupid gestures, acts and words. Im sorry if i didnt do my job properly, if i didnt want to take lead, if im lazy and all, im just human, full of mistakes and regrets, but personally i think i make too much of those. Im just not a good person, and im sorry about that. Im sorry Valerie when the time i sat on your lap and you were furious. Im sorry Alice if I bullied you a lot. Im sorry to the guys if im annoying, irritating and shameful. Im sorry to the gurls if im too social, if you know what i mean and im too naughty. Im sorry if i talked dirty a lot, im sorry if i made a lot of people mad at me.

Im not a really good person, many dislike me and hate me. Im aware of that. And Im sorry it had to be that way. Primaryly, im sorry if im a terrible Class Rep.

Im terribly sorry last few nights when we were supposed to have a rehearsal, but I didnt go. Instead i went elsewhere. Im sorry to all, as i was in a big dilemma, contemplating whether to go or not. As you all might have known about my roomate, if you dont keep it quiet, if you know also keep it quiet, we are keeping it discreet ok, anyways, i was supposed to spend the night with him. As it was the last nite for him, so frens of mine insisted on me going to celebrate the night with him. I was tired, sleepy and energyless, but at last i decided to go as i wanna be my roomates side. I cant leave him, you all know how im attached to him right? So, we went Euphoria that night. As hard for me to admit it, we went to spend the night there and i didnt go to the rehearsal. Im sorry. I was standing in a borderline of to go or not to go but i was unfairly driven to the other side. I wanted to make the best time, limited, for me and my roomate. Im sorry to classmates, as i was supposed to be the one who sets a good example but i made a mistake. I dont fully regret, as i had fun with my roomate, theyre good memories.

To Hilal, im really really really sorry. I know Im at fault. I lied to you, and you found out about it with your own eyes. It hurts, i know, as Im hurt as well. I didnt it to be that way, but i gave in to my unwise judgement and lied to you. Lying is the most hateful thing for me, but I myself did that and im ashamed. To those who are close to me, they know how i treasure trust, and how i hate people lying to me. But I regret that i had to do the same. Please understand i wasnt given any choice. I was desperate. And Im sorry that the damage is done and i cant return back to redo it. Im terribly sorry Hilal, if theres anything i can do to make it up for you id do it, but i know i cant ask for ur trust as i learned it the hard way in my previous life that trust is only given once. And i regret losing that from you.

My classmates, my friends, heres my sincerest apology. Im really sorry. But Im only human, i make mistakes i regret. Im young and foolish, and i have a long way to go in life if theres rezki. Its not my place to ask for you not to judge, insult, tease and comment on me so ill let it be. I hold every responsibility for the damage, and the blames on me. I accept it openheartly. I deserve it. Im sorry. So i let it up to all of you to think for yourself whats best.

Its been a wonderful Sem. Although theres a lot of ups and downs, its worth it. There'll be less playing and procrastinating next year as everything counts in the assestments. Good luck to all and i know we can do better. MUCH BETTER. Its just a matter of time before we outshine medicine students. :p I believe its possible.

To the newly appointed class committee next year, good luck, its not easy for me as im a difficult person, but i hope itd be better for you guys. And im sure Shu would make a ten times better Class Rep than me. I know im bad at it but im sorry.

See ya next year

-Class Rep Signing Out-